updated feelings

soooo i been ghost. i knowwww. i have an afro n shitt. this recession is hittin me hard cuz eveyrone who gives me money has less money now so therefore I have less money now.

im stressed as usual.
im sensitive.
im back into the seriousness of school and college n shit.
im being harassed..idc how that sounds.
im tight.
i see shit and dont say nuffin.
my moods fucked up.
i don't ever get a break.
I miss Michelle (shellz) alottttttttt.
I miss my little brother.
I miss my pops.
Me Dru n kadeem r cool n shit again like before so thass a plus.
emotional rollercoasters..ups and downns n shit.
maybe if i were alone with nobody and nothing I guess I would appreciate things more and wouldnt be going through this but I guess im fortunate.
people around annoy me.
i dislike snake niggas.
i cant have friends unless theyre mutual apparently.
have no time 4 hatin niggas or people who desire to crush my happiness.
I miss kyle( Saddity).


I'm stressed and misunderstood...aint shit change.

new years day and parlay'

Happy new year everybody! =]
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so im horny as usual, computers broke. cameras broke. havent had a haircut in a long ass time. I miss my lil mohawk though =/ But i deadass have waves now ..thats how long its been since I cut my shit...eggh oh well..i havent blogged in a long time. My wife,rime n food is what i been doing lately..umm me n my gf went to johnny rockets the other day n had sum hot ass buffalo wings that made me wanna scream. Then we went to Washington square park n sat n listened to some white guys play the guitar in the freezing cold. Thats love ya know? SOOOOOOOOOOOO Lastnight was new years eve and i spent it with my gf<33333 Like i said I was cuz imma good guy ya know?. I was with her her mom and her sister when the ball dropped =]. we prayed n stuff n i wanted to sleepover. When the ball dropped then it officially became out 6 month anniversary ..awww..isn't that romantic? =]. I took a cab home at like 1:45 n i had a connection with the driver. He was kinda cute for a chubby white guy. The cab came out to be $34 but i paid that shit light. i feel like throwing my gf on sara's couch and sexing her brains out right now butt egh im controlling myself =/. umm niggas just FUCKED UP some domino's =].We were supposed to finish this government project but it aint lookin good. We're kickin' it wit crop though so thats always good =]. I don't wanna go back to school...ever. Niggas havent seen Bianca in years n i miss herr =(. This is the first day of 2009 n shit and i spent with mi gyal. I don't really have any resolutionss except to hurryup n graduate, open up a bank account with
my gf..make n save more money and have more sex. ohh and to Sell more shit then i did in 08
=]. Yeah so now to todayss picss-

stressed n accussed

so aint shit new.
my computer broke so i havent been on the internet..my camera has been pointless cuz i have no computer to transfer pics 2. so this a short one just to speak my mind. no pics or fun or laughs. i haven't been doing much of anything lately..i stayed inda bed for the most of the day. cuz i just didnt feel like moving. didn't know that was a crime..i sleep and im accused of everything in the book EXCEPT sleeping. i dont understand females. you'll tell them one thing and they'll swear on life itself that your lying. wateva im used to it.

as usual im stressed and accused. aint shit change'

mohawks n rudebwoy tingss

yeah so im madd tired rightt now so imma make this one short. im tight cuz idk wats wrong with the font n the font color..shits acting gay so now its looks like Microsoft Word -_--..yesterday I went to school n shit yeah blah blah blah.I had a nice ass sausage n biscuit breakfast with tea WHICH I tok a pic of =[...I had some nice laughs wit crop in government..i hope we not failing =/. niggas be on my blogg in classs! =]..I saww my gf =] n stuff. Biancas coat was niceee. Afterschool me n sara went to Union Square so i could get my grandmother a $10 pen -_-. and then we went to Rugby. I got my gf a hat n a bag =]. I got a hat too cuz im ballin like that $$$$$$$$$$$$ -_-. After 14th st me n sara got verbally attacked by some homeless man in Wendys =/. Then we hopped back on the L n headed back to Canarsie. I got some mcdonalds n went to my gf's house to give her the stuff and I stayed for a little bit. I gave myself a mohawk =D..it was supposed to be a joke at first but I took it too far and i want my hair to be like that forever =/. You'll see those picss later on..I made one my myspace default =) butt im hungry so heres the picss

Sunday at Spitta's

yooooo! partyyy peoplee! suckinnn on summ balllsss, smokinn marijuana! lol. So today I metup with Dru at like 2:45 n we went to Hot Spittaa's cribbbb. Haven't been there in awhile n it was a decent re-union. he still goes hard for Stussy -_- butt I Finally got that good ass iced tea back in my lifee!. I'm gunna cop some APC's noww for suree. Lotta laughs n jokess n shit.We should do this 3some shit more often guys ;-]. Even though Dru had a lolipop in his mouth 80% of the day =/. I wanted to go to sleep but I couldn't get over how good that iced tea wasss. I mean I had it many times before but today it was extra delicious. But anyway, Kadeem n Dru played 2k9 for the most part while I listened to music n textd my gf. I miss her even though I was with her at this time lastnight. That's the way love goes ya know? This is my second blog of the day =). SHOUTOUTSS TO JAVIER..he comments every one of my blogs and makes me feel good about myself lol. He's my number 1 blog commenter and i lovee him<33. me ="]" died ="/

it's Saturdayy! stickky iccky ickyy

Goodmorning everyone, I'm kinda grumpy right now cuz my gf woke me up -_-. I was having the greatest sleep of my life..then my phone rang on loud right next 2 my face =/. I still love her thouggh. So yesterday!......umm........ I wore my vandals for the first time since like 11th or 10th grade. I hadd those shits since like 9th grade. I love them though so smd. Yesterday I wokeup n had a greaat ass breakfasst then headed to Rime. Had a nice day with Musa cuz he completes me <33. Nigass had MADDD pizzaaa and i took a pic of mine before i tore that shit up..then Shellz cameee =]]..haven't seen her since the last party so that was a nice suprise. She gave me my xmas gift. She's the besst sister in thee worlddd. Her sister doesn't talk and Musa was giving her the eye lol. They look alike to me. Then Rain n Chase came thruu n shitt. After Rime I got on the train and headed to my gf's house =],. I saw Eustace at Bdway Junction but he didnt see me =(. I got on the L trainn then went to Mcdonalds n got some weird ass order for her. I got there at 10 o clock cuz i can do that.She sat there and ate in my face -_-. I was starving but I also wanted to have sex so I didn't complain lol, I think I have a sex problem but eggh w.e. then Melissaaa camee =]. She was in a bad mood which hurt my feelings but i still love her. She definately wore Bred 11's in the snow -_-. Speaking of snow, me n riss had a snowball fight. She got destroyed, I kinda felt bad cuz i was od'in. Then she started throwing big ass ice blocks. I tried to tell her that could damage my sexual performance if I was hit but she didn't listen. Then we came in and had some tea =]. I ended up staying till 12:30 then i leftt n shit. Had a nice nap on the L train as usual n ended up getting home at 2 cuz of the stupid G train. I was planning to sleep till like 3 but ofcourse she woke me up so here I am.

picss->

Snoww =]

Well i just wokeup a little while ago..Yesterday was an interesting day. I went to school and then it started snowingg n shit =]. I was madd hype but my gf wasn't -_-. Oh yeah me and her are back to normal now =]. I wass hungry but didn't eat lunch for some odd reason. Me n crop had some good laughs in Government as alwayss. I had like 5 snowball fights with the juniors n random people who were walking past. It was fun..felt like Halo in real life. Yeah whatever, so afterschool I headed to Rime. my feet were wet n cold n shit cuz i never wear boots. I got to Rime n did some work n shit. I wore the PenField snorkle aroudn the store for half the ay even though i didnt buy it yet. I want it badly but i have like 4 or 5 coats already but that shit is tuff. I took a pic with it n made it my myspace default cuz I think i look cute. I ate chinese but the lo mein didn't really hit the spot. I usually just get my regular but I was told to "broaden my horizons" so eggh watever. I got new headphones n shit =] they're Sony but they work just as good as the Bose ones did and were a lot more affordable. After Rime I ran like 10 blocks to Court st to swipe my school metrocard before 9 o clock cuz i didnt wanna pay the 2 dollars =/, i swiped at 8:58 though ;-]. That was real black of me but hey what can i say ya know?. I waited for the R for like 45 minutes ns ht then i took it to Canal st n got to Mike's party n shit. saw everyone n the whole 9. then everybody was doing the normal drunk routines then a fight broke out..madd black people brawlin n shit n Mike kicked everyone out so I left. Niggas don't think. WHy care for someone who deosn't care for you?. Poeple do anything to be down or fit in..no matter WHAT it takes. I'm starting to realize that you can't change people..people are gunna do what they want no matter what you say. The word "friend" is a term that's used to loosely, there's a thin line between a friend and an associate...I beleive you have to go through certain obstacles and situations with someone before you can call them your friend. But hey, That's life. Im odd hungrry right noww but i don't wanna get up. I gotta be at Rime for 3:30 today so i get to relax until then..

here's some pics of yesterday: